Today

was difficult. Pressure, tantrums, paperwork, conflicts. Urg.

I'm so glad I'm home with my family.

Anyone else thinking it might snow this weekend?

My Boys

My boys are all happy.
My boys are all healthy.

Truly, this is all I've ever wanted.

Happy Birthday

My husband is a dear. This is what he was going to get for his birthday.

This is what he is getting instead. (sob)

Happy Birthday honey.

Fever

Nothing like getting sick to knock you out of your funk. Bleh.

Moving along... Alex got the lead in "Annie Get Your Gun". It is to be his last high school musical. He is on cloud nine. Me, not so much. I am not liking the whole growing up and leaving thing. Don't get me wrong, there are days when I'm ready for them ALL to move out (I don't like to pack or I would leave). But right now, sitting here thinking about my son growing up and away, I am in tears.

I think I have discovered the cause of my funk.

Staying Home

It's all I want to do.

I wasn't ready for summer to end.

Funk

I am in a bit of a funk. Not sure why. But I am.

I am tired.

I don't have any "me" time.

I feel inadequate. Like nothing I am doing is being done well ~ and that is something I CANNOT STAND!

I have had a headache for 3 days.

I could go on and on .... but....

I know that a good nights sleep will fix most of my funk. I need to knock the loud voice telling me I am I'm inadequate right out of my damn head.

Ibuprofen will help too.

Three Day Weekend

Pure, pure bliss.

The Veil

I've been thinking about the different types of veils and how they are used to symbolize so many different things.

One type of veil is the wedding veil. I played piano for a wedding yesterday. The bride wore a traditional veil and the groom lifted the veil to kiss his bride as instructed by the minister. The wedding was very simple and I was happy to see this tradition carried out during the service.

A second type of veil is the one that was torn in the temple when Jesus was crucified. I've been reading and reading on this topic and find it fascinating.

Another veil is the one in Order of the Phoenix that Sirius Black falls through. Harry is certain he can hear voices and can bring Sirius back if he too goes through the veil.

The last veil is the one that I wear most days. The one that I use to pretend I'm here for my own purpose and that what I'm doing is by my design. I received a very upsetting email yesterday about a man I know passing away very unexpectedly. I know this was not his choice or his design. When I read this email, my veil was ripped from in front of my face and I realized again how tenuous life is. My heart is breaking for his wife and young son, his family and his dear friends.

12, 7 & 5

I am so tired.

So. tired.

Back to School

Hmmmm. I've got so much to do, I'm not even sure where to start.

Alex got his license yesterday-ack!
My sister is ok- thank God!
My classroom is not ready-urgh.
The Cubs are on tv today- yeah!
I just got my haircut- not sure yet.!?
Ethan just got a cell phone- thank God for unlimited texting.
Aidan just got his football pads- when did he start playing football!?!?!?

Mama Mia

What a fun fun movie! Went with a great friend. Laughed, cried, and laughed some more. I will buy the soundtrack the next time I'm at the store.

That is all.

Nesting

I swear if I didn't know any better I would think I was pregnant.

It's Hot

Nothing like stating the obvious. Urgh.

In Wisconsin, the temperature got hot enough to swim and catch some rays. The nice thing though was the lack of humidity.

Spent some time at school today. Not sure how I want to set my room up yet. So, as a result, I've not moved any of my furniture except to pile it all in the middle of my room.

Am also looking for new family room furniture. Can't decide yet what I'm looking for or how I want to arrange the room. I like how it is now but feel it might be time for a change.

Anyone recognizing a theme here? Urgh.

The Dells

Our vacation was lovely. There was no fighting among the sisters until the last morning of our stay. And amazingly, I wasn't involved.

I got to sit in the sun, swim, drink a summer shandy, knit and hang out with my boys(and DH). What else could a girl want?

Am I Leaving It All On The Field?

Randy Pausch has passed away. He died last night. I loved his last lecture and in the coming days will listen to it again.

One thing he said really stuck with me... leave it all on the field.

I have, at times in my life, been afraid to do that. Afraid what others will think of me or say about me. Just typing these words makes me see how ridiculous that worry is. People are going to think and say what they want. Big deal.

Many things are changing right now and I am excited about the changes. I can see with some clarity this morning that change often brings about very good things.

Randy Pausch spoke about achieving your childhood dreams. This week while I'm on vacation, I am going to make a list and see where I'm at with my dreams.

Busy Week

Between football camp, soccer camp and job hunting... I'm pooped.

I had a work meeting this morning and another one this afternoon. Things are changing in the area of PD and our focus. I'm excited about where this will take my district.

Is it sick to say I'm looking forward to this school year?

Blackout

What a fantastic time I had doing Into the Woods. I love love love doing theater for a variety of reasons.

I love being on stage and becoming a character.
I love being around other theater people. They are so accepting and true.
I love making people smile. And think. And sometimes cry.
I love learning something about myself everytime I do a show.

He's Home

and he's safe! My BIL Liam is home from Iraq for 18 days. He called me yesterday afternoon. It was SO good to hear his voice and hear how good he sounds.

We'll get to see him hopefully early next week!

Klutz

I am a klutz. I tripped last night and knocked over a can of paint that proceeded to spill all over the concrete floor.

I should have stayed home.