My Love

Growing up, I was sure I was going to be famous. I envisioned myself either a star of the stage or the music scene. I worked toward my goals taking dance lessons, acting lessons, voice and piano lessons. I auditioned for numerous plays(and got a lot of parts), played in different bands and worked hard on perfecting my "craft".

When I met my husband, my biological clock started ticking so loudly, it totally derailed my vision of my future. I abandoned my dreams of superstardom and set my sights on having a family with this man.

I really didn't have any idea how to make a family or a marriage work. My own parents were divorced and while they were married, they were very unhappy. My grandparents had had a happy marriage but having viewed this relationship as a child, I wasn't sure that I hadn't made things look better than they really were.

Seventeen years later, this man and I are still married. My marriage has lasted longer than my parents marriage. By one year. We have 3 wonderful sons that were very much wished and hoped and prayed for. Our marriage has gone through some very difficult times ~ try raising 3 sons while your husband works and puts himself through college and then you work full time and get a masters degree. But mostly, our marriage has had wonderful times.

Tonight, when I sat down to write this post about my upcoming anniversary, I realized that I am famous. I might not be a famous actress or rock star, but I am famous. I am loved and adored and appreciated by my husband and by my three sons. And that, is better than any fame I ever imagined for myself as a young girl.

Google is everywhere....

everywhere, everywhere....

It's been a long long time since I lasted posted. Hmm.

School is .... good.

Home life is ... great.

my inner peace is ... right at this moment .... really really good.

All in all, things are much better since my last entry. I'm not saying that EVERYTHING is perfect, but, definitely better.

I've taught myself to knit(actually the art teacher at my school helped) and I'm almost finished with a scarf. I find knitting to be so fulfilling. It is so satisfying to create something that I can actually wear!

I've read a LOT of great books. I would like to start a list of what I've read in my book group both to keep track and also just to be visually impressed by the length of the list

Gotta go make supper now..

rj