Friday, July 18, 2014

Summer 2014

To say this summer has been interesting would...

My trip to Telluride Bluegrass Festival in June was good and bad.  Nickel Creek was outstanding as were the other acts we heard.  The scenery was beautiful and I so loved being in the mountains again.  The bad - not feeling comfortable for most of the trip: feeling uncomfortable with Joye, uncomfortable as a third wheel (Karen & Joye) uncomfortable not knowing what was going to happen next, cold (the night we camped). While I am glad I went, I'm not sure it was the experience I  had hoped it would be.

I seem to have anxiety.  Anxiety that has gotten to the point of making me worry about stupid things.  My current worry is Aidan getting a job.  Why worry about that?  It's not like he's moving out and needs money... I've really done very little this summer except knit, watch netflix and read.  And this makes me anxious, like I should be DOING SOMETHING.  I just don't know what that something is.


I have had several gigs this summer and am getting back the joy of singing with Deadwood.  I'm slowly coming to grips with the new drummer... S.l.o.w.l.y.

Friday, February 21, 2014

Beautifully Flawed

My dear, sweet friend Teri died Wednesday night. I had planned on visiting her Thursday but it wasn't meant to be. Instead I spent the day with Diana, Chuck and Eric. Teri's sister Janet made it to Kirksville and we got started on Teri's obituary. I assigned myself the task of finding Teri's last lecture slides and her vita.  Lynae and I also took Diana shopping to buy a special outfit to wear for the memorial service.

I learned so many things on Thursday. The sound of children finding out their mom is gone is a sound I never want to hear again. If you choose to not have a funeral, you still need a funeral home to help get your obituary in the newspaper. If you choose to donate your body to science for research, you have to find a place willing to take your body. Having things in order including your home makes it easy for friends to come sit shiva with your family. We are never ready to lose someone we love.

Teri, like us all was beautifully flawed. She was flawed in that cancer wreaked havoc on her body but not her beautiful spirit and soul. Flawed in that she had to leave much sooner that she would have chosen and beautiful in the way she chose to live her life even before her initial diagnosis of cancer.

Godspeed Teri. You are already missed.